So, today I tried to call expedia to get my parents flights over to Korea. I never knew how tough it would be to call and explain the situation that my wedding was cancelled and I wanted to use the flight credit for something else. I spent the whole time crying. The poor operator was trying to help me but she had difficulty understanding me. I was an emotional wreck. Gosh I am a mess. Sometimes my life feels like it is in shambles. But, I can't really have a pity party because I look around at my very nice and very modern apartment that the government pays for and I have a roof over my head and 2 adorable sometimes awful dogs. I know I should be happy with what all God has blessed me with but, it is so hard sometimes. When bad things happen in our lives especially so many right in a row all we can think about is the bad things. It's so hard to focus on blessings when you have a tough time thinking of any. It is difficult living in Korea at times with family so far away. It is difficult when most people in my unit would rather get drunk then experience the culture. I have different morals and values than many people I work with so it is hard to see similarities. I was friends and went out with many of them before however, I am way too tempted to drink and act crazy. Neither of those things will help me at this juncture in my life.

Anyways, expedia is being horrible. They are telling me these tickets are non-transferable. That means I may not get to bring my parents to Korea. I really wanted them to see where I live and where I work. I guess that won't be possible. I am really disappointed by the whole thing. I am supposed to take this honeymoon by myself. AHHH! I don't want vacation by myself. Who does that? Well, I don't know maybe I will go to Europe.